I am at a loss here. Something is up with me. I have been thinking about it for a few days too. Usually in December I get depressed and angry. I resent my job and write bitchy things about selfish people shopping on my blog. Right? Remember last year? Well this year feels different so far. I don’t know why. (Well I was kinda upset when my blog broke, but that was different. Totally isolated.)
There are a few positives… I am digging my holiday decor in the house. It’s only the second year in a row where we have put up a tree and all that. We had boycotted for a number of years. This year I really like it! Another odd difference this year is that work hasn’t been bad at all. Actually, aside from the extended work hours junk it has been fun! I think we have put and continue to put in a higher level of planning. That combined with the larger investment of time has made it pretty smooth so far. Nice!
I also just kinda feel festive. I keep waiting for the crash, for my mood to really sour but it hasn’t. I have holiday music playing for a bit each day. When I get home I hurry to turn on the tree. I don’t even care that I desperately need a haircut!
Weird.
I also think I am gonna leave the decorations up for an extra week and throw a post holiday party. Well, not a party as much as a open house where people can cruise in and out as they go about their day. No pressure of carving out time for a party for the guests, and no pressure of a full house all at once for us. Heh.
See, this behavior is unlike me. December is strange this year.
tagged: work weird party december
