So today is my mother’s birthday. Aw. My mom! And I am nowhere near her. I sent her flowers tho. They got there early. I figured since they screwed up the last time so bad (the 1-800-Flowers people, I mean) I sent them over to her 2 days early to account for the delivery suckage. I don’t know how much she liked them. I didn’t hear from her for a full day after I got the delivery confirmation in my email. Weird. And even then her note was about so many other things. I dunno. I hate being so far sometimes. I miss my family. It’s the things like birthdays and Mother’s Day that make me feel it more. Don’t get me started on Christmas…
So yeah, it was a post about what to do if you find you are off your blogging path, so to speak. Whatever, I know what people are thinking. It’s a blog. It’s not a job. No one reads it, it’s not even in the ‘top 25’. Right. I realize not everybody thinks like that. I kid. Kinda. But srsly. There were some valid symptoms and these interesting questions presented:
Why am I blogging?
Who am I blogging for?
What am I blogging for?
What is my blog’s purpose?
What is my blog’s mission?
Where was my blog a year ago?
Where is my blog now?
Where will my blog be next year?
Where will my blog be in two years?
Where do I really want it to be?
Do these answers make me happy right now?
I know at first glance it seems silly to contemplate a blog. I took it seriously because I actually take my blog seriously. No, it’s not a serious blog. But dude, I have like 4 years tied up in here. Good times and bad. Good writing and bad. Mostly bad, but it’s still an exercise. It’s a commitment that I have made to myself and for the most part stuck too. I think in the course of this blog I have only missed like 5 or 6 days (maybe 10?) of posting. Total. In four years. That’s awesome! I totally feel like I lived up to the commitment I made in the beginning, before the link whoring, before the snazzy designs, before my self proclaimed internet fame. Heh. But I do think of quitting the blog sometimes. Shocking. I don’t really want to tho. I dunno. I think I need to go old school for a while. Less bitching, possibly less Idol, and much less filtering what I want to say. This may include the ‘what I did today’ posts more often, because that’s where it started. That’s where I got my footing in the beginning, and the core of what I avoid here now. Put on the iPod and just type my life. That’s what I want to get comfy with again before I go on to the next thing. Whatever that might be….
