I am so pathetic. I have the worst writers’ block today. It’s really bad! Normally after surfing around for a while I get past it and regurgitate something onto the site, but today… Yikes! It’s been a painful exploration of my empty head.

My theory is that my life is entirely too boring to keep all this up. The scary thing is that if I stop trying to write every day my well of creativity might dry out forever. I used to paint and draw and sculpt back in the day. I did all three quite well too. (I have report cards, exhibits, and a portfolio to prove it!) I just haven’t done any of it in a long, long time. At least a few years ago when I was working in the visual field I had a creative outlet. In my job now there is no such thing. If I do help out on the sales floor I am technically doing someone else’s job.

But how creative is this site? Despite the little snipits of code (of others’ creation on the MT help sites) and software (ditto) I added, the fact remains that the cool design and over-all functionality was created by someone else. I was just creative enough to hire her. All the events are just from my life. All the links are from the web we all use. I only choose the words. Does that count? Is it creative at all?

tagged: blog blogging

Tonight I had the opportunity to explore some gay weblogs that I hadn’t visited before. Obviously not anyone on my blogroll, I enjoy, and recommend those folks! These I had dug out of blogrolls of others’ blogrolls, of other… well you get the idea. I have to say some were very depressing. A lot of stories of random drunken sex, sex in odd places, drugs… It is always a little jarring to read such accounts when your own life could have taken such a different turn. I was once in with a “bad crowd”, doing the drugs and hanging with dealers. It was all about the VIP room at the clubs, looking fantastic, drinking, and well, doing more drugs. I really don’t want to talk about my lowest moments here. I was just very lucky that my living situation blew up before I got into real trouble. My parents took me back in without ever really knowing what happened, and I moved on from that life. Luckily still healthy, and smarter. I guess years later to read what could have been is, well, a downer…

I don’t judge those people for doing what they do. It is all up to them how they live. I’m happy that I figured out that type of life wasn’t for me.

tagged: gay blog sex

Today was one of those good days. Everything seemed to make me smile. Even the lady who had a manager called because she didn’t like the twenty dollar bill she received as change (she wanted a better one). My boss has been doing the management reviews, and he has hinted that things are good (not that I think I’m bad…). I even made myself some nachos tonight to celebrate. To top things off, I am finally signed up with audblog. Being that I am rather shy, and have a voice even I don’t like, audio posts shall be used sparingly. But I am glad to have the capability, as it will be the only way I will be posting while in Mexico this April (a trip I only recently learned I am going on!). So yeah, today is good…

Now I get to add an audblog button!

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I’ll say! I’ve spent almost 45 minutes trying to sign up for audblog. Sheesh! Their server apparently doesn’t like me. I almost get through the process when it comes back with “looks like we have all we need!” or something. I then am led to “log in” with the info I just entered. When I do

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I have no time AND a boring life.

I did get to Macworld though. Big geeky fun! Yay! I was good this year. I only bought one game. Last year was another story.

Oh, this is pure genius! And, I have to say, I do think the iPod mini is a tad pricey. You can spend just fifty more and get a better iPod. Anyway, back to my game.
tagged: blog blogging game ipod mac life macworld

So, I am so excited! I have finally found someone to do my site design. Yay!! And, I am very happy with my decision to go this route… It took a lot of effort to get this page to be THIS ugly! So when the new look happens I will be much less shy about people coming here.

So, I have promised myself I will write here everyday.  I need to adjust to putting my words here. Adjust to writing. I believe it will be therapeutic, and good for my mind. I have a lot of crap to write about too!

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Wow. I love my blogroll! It always knows which of my favorite sites has been updated. Yay! However, I did not know that if i CLICKED there I caused myself to be a referring site, and y’all may look into what site is doing said referring! I am really in a “new” state over here and apologize for the practice weblog train wreck that you find here! Check back later! I am learning to be fabulous..(at this)

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Wow! I feel like I’ve made so much progress, and yet, not so much. I got a cute little Blogroll, some great buttons, and a meter (why?)...
So now if only I liked the stylesheet, hmm….
Anyone wanna design for me?

tagged: blog design blogroll progress