I just found out that I am all out of my favorite dietary supplement. Of course, I marched over to the Whole Foods to pick up another bottle. Did they have them in stock? No. It's not that I'm panicking or anything. It's just that I have grown accustomed to taking them before a bad day. Actually, they seem most effective right before any work day. I do notice a little more "spring in my step" on my happy pill days. This is a good thing because I have to be overly cheerful at work on a daily basis. See the happy little guy on the box? That means they work! (Even if it's all in my head.) Now I am heading into a stressful week without my happy pills. Bummer. At least I started today off in a good mood... We'll see how the rest of the week goes. It can't be that bad. At least I got some new clothes! I'll be crabby, yet stylish.

daniel · mid-morning · 2 comments · ping it

It's funny how an emotionally charged day can make a person feel so drained. I feel like I have run a marathon! The reality is that physically speaking, I actually had an easy day. I suppose that I am mentally overwrought. Even if I'm not I like the sound of that!

daniel · the wee hours · say it · ping it

One of the most fascinating things about having this site to post on is that it forces me to communicate on a regular basis. One of my biggest challenges or opportunities in life is keeping in contact with people. I rarely call my friends. At least not on any regular basis. There are many great friends I have made at work over the years that I have completely lost contact with. These are terrific people who enriched my daily life, and yet due to my issues I let them slip away. It's not that anything was wrong, but it became less convenient to maintain the friendship. One of us moves on and we exchange numbers, and email, and still manage to lose touch. The fault is usually on my end. I am one of those people that when I'm done, I'm done. I don't think it is always healthy. That is one of the reasons I try to be here every day. It feels important to me to maintain this log of my life without letting it slip away. I want to enjoy the fact that people see me here, and leave their comments on what I have going on, or feel inclined to link to. It is really a great exercise for my to dig around in my mind and see what is there for my to put out there . To reach out (or within) every day and communicate. Get used to communicating. I even feel that the most trivial post I can make is still worthwhile as I am trying to create a habit that I feel is not only creating a valuable journal of my life, but forcing me to maintain a connection to something that requires me to put myself out there. Why am I even thinking about this? I have created this site to have a good time, and pass on the great links I find! I guess I wanted to look at the deeper reasons that cause me to continue, day after day, even when I am tired and bitchy. The reasons I may have been thinking about when I wrote this. I also had been thinking about posts I have read analyzing this whole blogging thing, and why people end up quitting. It really makes you look to why it started. I know this is just a baby blog right now. Heck, I don't know that I've even found my voice in this place yet. It's just curious the way it makes me think. I find I think more every day I write.

daniel · the wee hours · 1 comment · ping it