I don’t know about you, but I feel super productive! I Not only started laundry, but I also found all my tax papers (for doing taxes at some future day), I updated a bunch of website behind the scenes type stuff (which required RESEARCH in some cases. It has been a long time since I kept this place shiny and new), I filled the cat’s water (which was bone dry, I fall behind on stuff being alone so much), AND I started a much needed load of laundry. Darks, natch. That’s where all my cute clothes are. I have been trying to always look extra cute. Even to get gas. I am forcing my own return to Planet Me, which is from where I originate.. Or something. Bad grammar much? Why not? It’s my damn blog.
So today was an emotional day at the workplace. If you’ve been reading along you know that I am also laid off. As of Friday I am no longer employed. *pause for collective sigh* So today there was a sending off party for the manager staying on and moving to another location and a handful (big handful) of associates went to our store manager to see if they might include me in the send off somehow. She told them to be subtle and not make me speak… Wise. So to my surprise when I got back from my lunch, which entailed sleeping in my car as I have since I got all of my life-altering news, I was surprised by a giant buffet in the lunchroom. So many people were there on their day off. Soo much food. Also much love. I know they all know I’m not with the company any longer. They don’t all know why, but my favorites do. The heart felt send off’s and well-wishes way overshadowed the other manager, which she allowed. They all signed a card. I got a gift. It was too much. The people I have worked with in that building have been my family for five years. I had to leave after a bit because I couldn’t hide my tears. I will miss them more than the people at any job prior.
My tattered heart broke all over again today. I am still crying. And dealing with it alone.
